Day 1:
I was so lucky to catch Sasha, my best friend from high school, on YM. She is now working in Singapore so we really don't talk that much anymore.
Today i was able to chat with her for hours and i told her about my situation...i told her everything.
It's really nice to talk with a friend. after i told her everything, it's funny because...well, we really are friends! she understood me. i've never felt that someone really understood what i was feeling until i talked to Sasha.
i just want to quote her words of wisdom. hehehe
"it's ok to be jealous. you two are very close...it's normal to feel that way."
"it's ok to feel different kinds of emotions at the same time"
" the way i see it, you don't hate the new lover, you really won't care less if that person has other girlfriends. But you just feel bad because your friend is so crazy over someone who is no good, who doesn't deserve him, and you are hurting because it is you who sees all of these."
"a crazy person will never admit that he is crazy. and if you force him to admit that it will only make everything crazier"
s:" i'm an expert when it comes to craziness...it takes one to know one."
me:" hahahah... i'm also crazy"
s:" that's ok...awareness is the first step to healing"
"you can't control anyone. the only one you can control is yourself, so work on yourself"
me: but what if the time will come when he will need me and i can't be there because i'm too busy living my life without him? i don't want that to happen...i want to be there for him
S: "well, if that time really comes... wouldn't it be great that you are then a better person to deal with him than you are now?"
there was more words of wisdom but it would make this blog too long.
this is enought for now.
i feel a lot better after talking with her. =)
i will work on myself. =)![]()
I was so lucky to catch Sasha, my best friend from high school, on YM. She is now working in Singapore so we really don't talk that much anymore.
Today i was able to chat with her for hours and i told her about my situation...i told her everything.
It's really nice to talk with a friend. after i told her everything, it's funny because...well, we really are friends! she understood me. i've never felt that someone really understood what i was feeling until i talked to Sasha.
i just want to quote her words of wisdom. hehehe
"it's ok to be jealous. you two are very close...it's normal to feel that way."
"it's ok to feel different kinds of emotions at the same time"
" the way i see it, you don't hate the new lover, you really won't care less if that person has other girlfriends. But you just feel bad because your friend is so crazy over someone who is no good, who doesn't deserve him, and you are hurting because it is you who sees all of these."
"a crazy person will never admit that he is crazy. and if you force him to admit that it will only make everything crazier"
s:" i'm an expert when it comes to craziness...it takes one to know one."
me:" hahahah... i'm also crazy"
s:" that's ok...awareness is the first step to healing"
"you can't control anyone. the only one you can control is yourself, so work on yourself"
me: but what if the time will come when he will need me and i can't be there because i'm too busy living my life without him? i don't want that to happen...i want to be there for him
S: "well, if that time really comes... wouldn't it be great that you are then a better person to deal with him than you are now?"
there was more words of wisdom but it would make this blog too long.
this is enought for now.
i feel a lot better after talking with her. =)
i will work on myself. =)
